It Wont Always Be This Hard

January 1st did not disappoint. We had an unexpected but VERY needed day with friends today that feed my soul in just the way I needed. There are very few people who truly understand the life of a foster parent unless they have lived it themselves and as a foster parent, man you need someone like that in your life.

Baby C has been our biggest challenge. He has pushed us to our breaking point more times than I can count and makes us doubt more than I’m proud to admit. We joke that his sweet is so sweet but his bad is so bad but in full transparency, it’s hard to see the good through the hard most days. But today I was reminded just how far he has come. And he has come SO very far. When you are in it, and we’ve been in it for a while now you don’t see the progress, the growth, the change…because you are just so exhausted and overwhelmed that you are basically just treading water but the positive change we have seen in him has been huge and I desperately needed someone to remind me of that. I’ve been living in a space of blocked care for quite sometime and have admittedly not been trying as hard as I should to change that. But today I was reminded that we are not walking this journey alone and that it won’t always be this hard and I imagine there are lots of people, especially parents who need that reminder